"It's a bunch of things," Ezra deflects, not sure what Anakin is seeing. He hunches his shoulders and makes himself push through pick apart his feelings.

"The most selfish part is-" He gaze darts away. "I'm a padawan without a master. I- I wasn't ready, when Kanan died. But I couldn't fall apart. Couldn't worry about my path as a Jedi in any long term sense. I had to stay focused on the Empire and the mission. For my family, for Lothal, for the galaxy. And then...I was in Temba and by the time I'd settled in - Ben and I...we'd clicked. We'd talked about how continuing my training would be hard for both of us, but we agreed to go forward. Together. I'd hoped - I'd hoped the Force would keep us together until we were both ready for some sort of formal something, even if it wasn't the traditional way. And if it took longer for Ben to feel ready to let go, because of all the ways he believed he failed your namesake. That was fine. As long as it took."

And now he feels back practically at square one, where Obi-wan here and now is concerned. Worse, because he can not and will not expect Obi-wan to teach him anything more, much less declare his apprenticeship completed, somehow.

Technically, there are three other Knights here, he could apprentice with, he supposes. But he isn't sure if the elder Anakin even considers himself a Jedi anymore, and he does not really want to be knighted by Anakin Skywalker, either way. He feels strange talking to this Anakin about any of it, and he hasn't even tried to talk to Luke about it.

He does not begrudge Luke Skywalker or Anakin Solo their Knighthoods, but...he knows his training has tied back to the old Order and traditions in ways theirs hasn't. It doesn't make his training better, just different-

He feels like this is his path, to straddle this gap.