[Maul shakes his head, looking away from the camera and off towards the side.]

For you, it seems worth it. For me, to experience years of pain and suffering that only allow me to be happy in small amounts is not worth it. To be vulnerable for me usually means someone exploiting that vulnerability and using it against me.

I have had everything taken away from me before for no other reason than someone wished to cause me pain. I have had to fight tooth and nail to gain parts of it back here. Even that is still not enough to quell the anger and pain inside.