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[ezra_of_lothal]

"I'm Ezra Bridger and this is my communicator thing. Leave a message!"

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[survivalthroughhate]

[Maul shakes his head, looking away from the camera and off towards the side.]

For you, it seems worth it. For me, to experience years of pain and suffering that only allow me to be happy in small amounts is not worth it. To be vulnerable for me usually means someone exploiting that vulnerability and using it against me.

I have had everything taken away from me before for no other reason than someone wished to cause me pain. I have had to fight tooth and nail to gain parts of it back here. Even that is still not enough to quell the anger and pain inside.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Tiredly-]

I've given you my perspective. There's no point in talking about it more.

[survivalthroughhate]

I suppose not.

[He pauses.]

Do you still wish me to avoid your presence?

[An odd thing to rope back around to but Maul's not good with boundaries as they both know. He needs clear ones given, for if not he'll take a mile when someone gives him an inch.]

I completely lost this one, argh, sorry

[ezra_of_lothal]

[He quiet for a long moment, thinking it over. Honestly trying to both examine his feelings and think it through, reasonably.

Then he sighs, softly.]

You've owed up to the thing I was furious over, and I think you do get why I was so angry.

So I guess it doesn't have to be a hard 'no, stay away from me'.

But...I'm not sure anything more than small doses would be good for either of us, either.

No problemo!

[survivalthroughhate]

[Maul thinks that over for a moment and then nods. That's about all he can ask for at the moment. He's pushed Ezra pretty hard in this conversation the same way Ezra has also pushed him.]

Very well. My door is still open to you whenever you like.

[ezra_of_lothal]

That...sounds good.

[And because Ezra believes in positive reinforcement-]

Thank you.