[It would be easy to have judged this, once. Paul might have sat here and imagined himself above this, but he knows better, now. He's seen more, done more. All that he feels is a certain sympathy, and a desire to better understand.]
It must have been difficult to think of a reason not to accept that power.
So Maul sought revenge on his teacher, with you as the proxy, and without your knowledge? And he sought to control you with fear?
He did try to use me against Palpatine first - there was an ancient weapon at the temple, and it needed two Force users to activate it. But once I worked out what it was, Kanan and I stopped it.
I did take an artifact from the Sith temple and learned from it. Kanan had been blinded and we thought we lost Ahsoka. I didn't handle those losses well, and I did some things that I regret. Kanan and the rest of our family stood by me, and I've tried not to repeat those mistakes.
Maul kept turning back up. He held some of my family hostage to coerce me into do a ritual to invoke a vision that answers a question. Somewhat shortened version: Master Kenobi was in that vision, and they have a history, too.
So Maul was distracted from going after his master to going after Obi-wan. And again, used me to find him. To be clear, a version about 18 years older than the one here.
I know Master Kenobi didn't want to kill him, but what he'd been doing was too important to let himself be killed or captured.
So he sent me away with a way to get back home safely. But I was still close enough to feel Maul die.
You've had a difficult life, before coming here. The Jedi teach their students great resilience.
[The extent of Ezra's continued compassion is admirable, even if it isn't Paul's path. That strong of a devotion to anything is worth respect.]
So he exploited your vulnerabilities. I don't mean that as an insult. Everyone has vulnerabilities. Leverage points.
So he had to be killed to stop him, and now he's here, so far unkillable. I'm sorry. That must be difficult for any of you to bear, knowing what you know.
Our connections to other people are a source of strength but also can potentially be used against us, yes. My teachers emphasize letting go of fear, as much as one can, so it can't control us.
Right now, my policy with Maul is to keep my distance. He's clearly made connections with a number of people here, and some of them seem invested in him learning from his mistakes and changing how he treats people in general. I sincerely hope he finds a better path.
I don't need to go poking my own trauma, and we're both better off if he doesn't know about it, I think.
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ezra_of_lothal) wrote2022-01-03 07:48 am
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It must have been difficult to think of a reason not to accept that power.
So Maul sought revenge on his teacher, with you as the proxy, and without your knowledge? And he sought to control you with fear?
How did you get away from him, in the end?
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I did take an artifact from the Sith temple and learned from it. Kanan had been blinded and we thought we lost Ahsoka. I didn't handle those losses well, and I did some things that I regret. Kanan and the rest of our family stood by me, and I've tried not to repeat those mistakes.
Maul kept turning back up. He held some of my family hostage to coerce me into do a ritual to invoke a vision that answers a question. Somewhat shortened version: Master Kenobi was in that vision, and they have a history, too.
So Maul was distracted from going after his master to going after Obi-wan. And again, used me to find him. To be clear, a version about 18 years older than the one here.
I know Master Kenobi didn't want to kill him, but what he'd been doing was too important to let himself be killed or captured.
So he sent me away with a way to get back home safely. But I was still close enough to feel Maul die.
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[The extent of Ezra's continued compassion is admirable, even if it isn't Paul's path. That strong of a devotion to anything is worth respect.]
So he exploited your vulnerabilities. I don't mean that as an insult. Everyone has vulnerabilities. Leverage points.
So he had to be killed to stop him, and now he's here, so far unkillable. I'm sorry. That must be difficult for any of you to bear, knowing what you know.
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Right now, my policy with Maul is to keep my distance. He's clearly made connections with a number of people here, and some of them seem invested in him learning from his mistakes and changing how he treats people in general. I sincerely hope he finds a better path.
I don't need to go poking my own trauma, and we're both better off if he doesn't know about it, I think.
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I'm good at keeping other people's secrets. He won't hear anything about this from me. You have my word.
I shouldn't keep you. It was good to talk. We should do it again, some time when things are less difficult.