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[ezra_of_lothal]

"I'm Ezra Bridger and this is my communicator thing. Leave a message!"

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[ezra_of_lothal]

[Ezra's lips switch in a small grimace of sympathy.]

I lost years of memories for a while a couple of months ago, and it was very not okay. The only reason I didn't just...try to disappear and hide from every one was Obi-wan was there and I had enough memories of him that, uh, fit. Enough to trust him.

I'd say it's your bond so you're the best one to cut it but - do you know if this bond is something Obi-wan can sense?

[in_loveless_memory]

[He's silent for a long minute. He hasn't told... anyone this here, not WILLINGLY... but...]

I've... [He took a very deep breath.] ... I've lost the first 10 years of my life. [Ezra may or may not notice that Ritsuka is all of 12.] And I haven't gotten them back.

No one can bring them back.

And I don't know, I know... I know MAUL can so I don't doubt Obi-Wan-san can. [Ritsuka finds Obi-Wan to literally be the MOST competent, so whatever Maul is barely capable of, Obi-Wan can do in spades as far as Ritsuka is concerned.]

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Softly-]

You don't want to lose even a second more of what memories you have.

[His expression firm up into determination.]

If Maul can sense it, I bet any trained Force user can, especially if they know what they're looking for.

[In Ezra's estimation Maul is powerful in his way. Deadly. But not terribly great at using the Force aside from fighting and breaking things. And yes, he knows for fact Obi-wan can has or will take Maul down in multiple fights, so he's limited even in that.

Another slow breath in.]

Can I ask - this isn't a blood bond? It's some other sort of psychic bond?

[in_loveless_memory]

No... I don't... [He lets out a long breath.] What little I have left are precious to me, even the bad ones but especially... especially GOOD ones...

[His ears press back against his head.]

It's not a blood bond... I'm... well, it's something from my world. It's psychic, emotional, and physical. I'm a Sacrifice. If I make a strong bond with someone, then I amplify whatever powers they have... and... I take on any damage they receive in a fight. The thing is... the bond doesn't CARE if it's good or bad, just... strong. And the one made between Maul and I is made from antagonizing.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Ezra's eyes widen in alarm. Sacrifice is...a hell of a label, and one he's reflexively suspicious of - it sounds like exactly the sort of label you box someone in with if you want to narrow down their choices.]

...And I thought the bond I had with the older version of Maul sucked.

Ritsuka - [He frowns, trying to figure out how to phrase this.]

If you feel strongly about Maul still, would the bond just come back eventually? That can be part of how Force bonds work. Which is part of why I try to deal with Maul only in small doses.

[in_loveless_memory]

I... don't know. I don't know enough about the bonds to know if it would come back after being severed. I was just... at the time I was just willing to deal with it until the sword got brought up.

I told Maul to leave me alone and never contact me, but if this place is anything like Deerington, it's going to do everything it can to shove us together.

[ezra_of_lothal]

Yeah, that's - [Erza sighs.] How this place works, sometimes.

Ok. The sword is an option. I think it should work at least temporarily, even making a....very quick cut, so to speak.

I unfortunately don't know of any other ways to sever a bond that would work in this situation, and I did a lot of research on blood bonds, at least, before I found out how the sword works.

Picking who you want to wield it, also options.

[in_loveless_memory]

I want Obi-Wan-san! [He says it as soon as Ezra even mentions 'who wields it' his mouth is moving. He blushes and his ears flatten.]

Sorry, I mean... I just... I trust Obi-Wan-san. And I know he's very skilled with the lightsaber.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Ezra shakes his head.] I'm not offended.

It would be a dick move to get mad at you for making a choice like this for yourself.

[He thinks it is the better choice, anyway. Obi-wan knows Ritsuka better, and is just more experienced, period.]

[in_loveless_memory]

All the same, thank you. [Ritsuka is... much more used to the offer being given and then the other being offended when it's taken, or not taken, in some cases.]

You'd be- well, maybe not, but I've had enough get exactly that when it came to my decisions.

[ezra_of_lothal]

You're welcome.

And yeah, I've experienced that sort of thing, too. [He's met even worse versions of Maul, after all.]

Do you want to talk to Obi-wan about this stuff, or should I loop him in?

[in_loveless_memory]

I can contact him, the favor... is for me, so I should be the one to ask.

[ezra_of_lothal]

Alright.

I'm perfectly willing to simply loan Obi-wan the sword for this, by the way. I don't have to be there, at all. But I don't mind coming if you want a...third party spotter.

[in_loveless_memory]

.... You... You can be there. More... more people might not... be a bad thing.

[Why is this so hard to open up about?]

[ezra_of_lothal]

[His tone light and easy-]

Then I'll be there.

[in_loveless_memory]

... Right... kay... I-I'll call you later when I get a hold of Obi-Wan-san and Maul.

[And with that, he hangs up.]