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[ezra_of_lothal]

"I'm Ezra Bridger and this is my communicator thing. Leave a message!"

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[facultative]

He wouldn't. But it's true.

[ezra_of_lothal]

[He's quiet, a moment, turning that statement over his head. Does Anakin really believe he knows Jedi Master Obi-wan Kenobi better than he knows himself? Self-knowledge is probably never perfect, even for Jedi, who strive for it. And of course sometimes the people closest to us see things we don't -

But that seems a very big thing for Anakin to believe he is right about, while Obi-wan is wrong. A type of arrogance, maybe.

This...doesn't feel like arrogance to Ezra, though. More like, oh, fear. Anakin needs to believe this isn't true. The alternative is too horrible, somehow.]

Anakin. [Very gently-] Would it be such a terrible thing, for him to love you that much?

[facultative]

Isn't it obvious?

[He ruined his life, betrayed every ideal that Obi-Wan had tried to instill in him. The loss of everything dear to him would be easier to bear if it were at the hands of someone that meant nothing to him.]

[ezra_of_lothal]

You think it would make things easier.

I think it would make Obi-wan...smaller. His ability to love is so much of his strength. He's more himself with people to love, around him. [It's part of why Ezra has been sticking close to him.]

To cut his love for you out of himself...

[facultative]

What does it matter when there's no one left to love?

[He would suffer less and that's all Anakin could ask for.]

[ezra_of_lothal]

That will never, ever be true for him. Leaving aside that he's here, so he's in no way alone -

You've met your son.

[facultative]

[He still considers everything here a temporary distraction before they go back to their respective places.]

And you think one person could ever compare to everyone else he's lost?

[ezra_of_lothal]

[Whereas Ezra has revised his own theories about this particular place works, based on how Obi-wan got new memories, and his conclusion is they will never physically go back where they came from. Their minds may get 'updates' - their outward forms following suite - but this is home now.]

There's no comparison. No...replacing everyone and everything lost.

A light in the darkness and a reason to keep going - yes.